The Freedom of Saying "Yes"
Updated: Jan 22, 2021
Principle: Releasing your own will and saying "yes" to co-creative partnership with the Mother is freeing!
Practice: Create a "Goddess box" and when you try to control, write the issue on a slip of paper and put it in your box, to symbolize saying "yes" to the Mother.
If you’ve been reading this blog for a bit, you may or may not have noticed that I’ve been posting journal entries I wrote last summer. I’ve been aware that I felt safer that way, that it somehow reduced the vulnerability I might feel by posting my current entries that feel more raw.
Well, guess what? Yup – the Goddess has been nudging me for a couple weeks to up my game and start posting entries as I write them! No more security of having a backlog of material (although of course, I still do, and may still use it occasionally). No more security of looking back at the past, knowing what came next. She clearly wants me expressing myself fully as I am in the present moment, so I’m taking a big gulp and saying “Yes.”
And to my surprise in this moment, I feel ready. I even feel bold and courageous, and there’s joy in this form of self-expression. It’s exciting to say “Yes” and to trust that I’m consciously entering co-creative partnership with the Mother. I trust that when I say “yes” to Her call, She will also supply whatever is needed. I have longed for the freedom to be all of who I am for most of my life, so here I go!
Since last summer, I’ve begun a new practice I want to introduce: each morning, I start by writing an opening prayer. It serves as an invocation, a way for me to connect consciously with Divine Wisdom in many meaningful forms. There’s something powerful about writing it out that helps me to open to whatever help or guidance She might provide in my journaling. The basic structure is the same essentially every day, and then I may add a “check in” or a specific request for help or guidance.
So here’s my journal entry, including the opening prayer, for 1/13/21:
Good morning, Beloveds All: Isis, Sekhmet, Great Mother, Yeshua, Mother Mary, Mary Magdalene, angels, guides, ascended ones, sages. Thank You for another day to walk this sacred Earth path with and as You (that’s the basic, standard structure.) I don’t feel as open and connected today as I did yesterday – more a sense of diffuse presence and anxiety. It’s all impermanent anyway; those feelings will change and shift soon. And I am truly grateful for another day to live in co-creative partnership with You.
I listened to Tara Brach’s talk on impermanence (see listings for her and for “Insight Timer” app on Resources page) while I was awake early this morning. She says we can never have or get enough validation to feel secure; no matter how much approval, reassurance, love, recognition we receive from an experience, it’s temporary. As soon as the experience is over, we feel insecure again.
That landed in the context of the revelation I had yesterday that I do not have control of my safety, my health, my body temple, my death – or my security. In fact, there’s very little I do have control over. I’ve known that conceptually for a long time, but I embodied it in a new way yesterday. I had both exquisite and excruciating sensations of vulnerability in my body, knowing that I, too, am impermanent and that I cannot control my aging process or know what it will bring.
For the first time, I found a sense of freedom in that truth – freedom from struggling to try to accomplish the impossible (control). What if I release all the energy I’ve been putting into this futile battle of trying to impose my will on the world, trying to prevent any disability or pain – or even my death – and say “yes” to putting my faith and trust in You, Beloveds? What then? What if I join in co-creative partnership with You on the journey to my death? What an exciting and inspiring possibility that is – the possibility of “becoming the ocean!”