- Nancy Ogilvie
Principle: Accepting ego’s nature to manage and control frees us from the power struggle of trying to change her.
Practice: Inquire into what ego tells you to assess whether it’s true and trustworthy.
Written 7/31/21 Saturday
Good morning, Beloveds All: Isis, Sekhmet, Great Mother, Yeshua, Archangel Michael, Ggantija Priestess, all guides, angels, wise ones. Thank You for a new day to walk this sacred Earth path with You, as You, through You and in You.
I feel really triggered and afraid this morning, Mamas, and now I know that’s likely a mask for feeling more vulnerable than is comfortable. And I want You to make it better, Beloveds; I want You to soothe and comfort me and make the feelings go away. But that’s trying to change the feelings so I can feel more comfortable. Instead, please give me the courage to welcome what’s here, to remember that there is nothing wrong, to be present with what is instead of trying to make it go away. I remember now that You are always here and I am always safe in Your arms. Thank You…
I’m also really aware that it’s Your Power moving through me that I’m afraid of, Beloveds. As Marianne Williamson says in her book, Return to Love:
"Our deepest fear is not that we're inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world."
I want to believe that it’s my human desire for power over, for domination that scares me, and it’s not, primarily anyway. It’s opening to Your Power and surrendering to it that hangs my ego (as in the Hanged Man tarot card) and turns our world upside down, and she knows it. She stays in control by telling me that it’s she I’m afraid of; as long as I’m afraid of her, she has power over me. Whatever I’m afraid of has power over me. Holy toledo!
So reframing – it’s ego telling me I’m afraid of Your Power moving through me. Ego uses fear and my resistance to feeling and accepting fear to get what she wants. And the game is up, ego, love. You’re holding onto your river identity, and we choose to become the ocean by surrendering to the Divine Power moving through. Your/our identity as a separate human will die, and your power to control us will die. And we’ll have – not a new identity, not a new form, but Being!
That doesn’t mean you cease to exist, sweet ego; I still need you. You play a crucial role in navigating our life on the physical plane. It does mean our relationship is changing; I’m taking the driver’s seat/wheel, and you ride as a passenger from now on. I am the decision-maker in our life; you get input but not the final say. You no longer have the power to control me with fear. And I suspect you’ll learn to love the ride! Blessed be!